As I write this - I took the time to look back on last year at this time. I was sick - it was the type of sick that I never want to repeat. Although I feel a bit sick, cold, cough now - it is nothing like it was last year. I am most definitely having side effects from the tamoxifin and/or herceptin, but I guess it is something that I have to live with. My knees get so swollen that it is hard to walk, that is about 3-4 per week. I think it is from the tamoxifin. As it comes to the time which father time will change from one year to the next - I reflect back and look forward. I wish everyone a safe, secure new year.
For me - I have not really been good about making resolutions and I am not good with sticking to the Jan 1st type of thing. When I stopped smoking - it was Feb 1st - and that will be 10 years this year!
I also think that for me, this will be a wonderful year. I am looking forward to being done with the every three week infusions. Just think, I have been doing that for about 1 1/2 years and no wonder I can't find veins for blood work and infusions. But, when I am done, I am done - if I had a port that would be one more thing that I would have to do.
Hair - glorious hair. It is coming back. Still have yet to use a brush - I don't need one as of yet just my fingers. But, if I have not mentioned it - there is something about short hair that I personally don't like. Not sure if it goes back to when I was a kid. I think I am going to grow out the bangs a bit longer and then decide what to do with it. I just feel old and look at my skin - I look old too. Guess that is really what I want to work on for the new year. I am going to see if I can get that to go away (looking old and frumpy). I also want to change some other things as well - and that will come with time. It really is an inside out thing.
So, with that said - I am happy that I am not sick this year - there is not any visible cancer in me and that I can think with a clear mind.
Peace be with you.
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